poem Live To Hide By: Angela aline Black

[angela aline black]

Live To Hide By: Angela Black

God has no purpose for me
I have no reason , you see
You would never understand me
My life should end
But no, I pretend
It doesn’t hurt but what would you know
I put on a show
So you’re at ease
But I’m unpleased
faking this smile because you would run away if you could see
The face that could be
You think I’m here, but I am dead
I feel so alone inside my head
You think its just a waste of time
But it’s like I said- you’re fucking blind
Things that go on inside my mind
Would make you shake
And soon you’d brake
But then you’d see
What I must greave
A never ending pain unteemed
Thoughts non stop just racing away
God help me before I’m too late
My mind right now will not think clear
What can I do to disappear?
Thoughts of pain
Delight my brain
Like cutting myself will help me fade
Staring at the blood would show
I’m not afraid of letting go
I have no care-
not one in mind
About myself- I live to hide…