David Syvilian's Blog (4)

Maybe you have. Seven is definitely better than six. It looks and feels longer than the previous. Tasty oxen blood is better as others stuck together may weather. These are the idle thought of the long haul. “I’m here,” I say allowed. For fuck sakes, it sure took long enough. I take off my gloves and reach for a hat that I never put on in the first place. I see a note on the refrigerator. It says ‘Love ya- home at 8’. That brings me a nice warm feeling, alongside the fact that I am no longer out… Continue

If I close my eyes, it wouldn’t’ change anything. I might even fall asleep on this road. Doctors, what the hell do they know? Expletive deleted doctors, expletive deleted expletive deleted expletive deleted. BE-ee-EP! They are just stupid dreams anyway…it is useless, but it was my idea to go in the first place. He’s just doing his job. Scribble, scribble. I bet he didn’t write shit down, at least anything I was talking about. As upset as that makes me, I really can’t blame him if that were the c… Continue

I am here, that much (for now) is certain, though I have the distinct feeling that I will begin to doubt it along the way home. In fact, I just realized that I am here. It comes as neither a shock or with any kind of comfort at all. There is a hint of contentment, but no excitement or fear. Not yet. “Well, this is all very interesting son, but I don’t think I am what you are looking for,” he says, mopping his brow with an old bandana. That’s fine, in time. “I understand,” and I move on. It is ea… Continue

Zero, at first, seems proper. But the further along it goes, the idea begins to teeter on the absurd. There must always be some kind of representation for a beginning, but the idea that it will return to nothingness is something that I cannot subscribe to. Everything ends up somewhere. This is one thing I have learned throughout all time. There is always a continuation of things past. It is no miracle that this occurs, but a natural flow. Now that is has been established that there is no beginni… Continue